Here’s the song reference.
I had advised the tribe on Thursday night that I intended to make an early morning, light-speed grocery run at about 6 a.m. on Friday, and that should anyway be awakened by the sound of the front door closing, the correct course of action would be to nestle more comfortably into their pillows and blankets and resume sleep operations, and that under no circumstances was anyone to go into Mommy and Daddy’s room, or wake Daddy.
At 5:49 a.m. yesterday morning, as I was working on the blog post, I heard Bugaboo’s characteristic “I’m going to get away with something” tiptoeing sprint down the short hallway and into the bathroom, then the soft sound of our bedroom door opening and closing. Bugaboo is a pillow thief, and mine is her target of choice. If it happens to be unoccupied, and she thinks she can manage to not get in trouble for it, she will immediately climb into our bed and wrap herself around it.
On very rare occasions, she even goes back to sleep.
You may have already surmised that yesterday morning was not one of those rare occasions. I did not make the pre-dawn grocery run for fear of waking the rest of the tribe.
When I shuffled into the bathroom around 7:00 to shower, my saggy-eyed husband was tying his shoes and Bugaboo, dressed in her Thor costume, was merrily chattering, and bouncing on her Tinkerbell pillow. I rather gruffly informed her that I was highly displeased that she had chosen to disregard the previous night’s instructions, and asked her if she remembered what I had told her the night before. With some trepidation, she replied that she did remember she wasn’t supposed to wake Daddy, but that when she came in to give him a hug after she used the potty, he was already awake, so she stayed around.
“I tried to go back to sleep, Mommy, but I really wasn’t sleepy, and I have my Thor girl costume on, and . . .”
“So you did remember what the right thing to do was, and you deliberately chose not to do it?”
“Well, kind of.”
I breathed in, ready to deliver quite the lecture about how Daddy works very hard for us and it’s important for us to let him get his sleep, about how deliberate disobedience is a poor way to say “I love you.” Manie quietly said, “I was awake. She’s okay.”
Great, I thought, now he’s ENCOURAGING her to be disobedient. I scowled and prepared to include my husband in the lecture.
Ordinarily, I try to listen for “the still, small voice” that, when I listen to it, tends to guide me in the right direction. The Lord, in His omniscience, understands that the coffee doesn’t fully kick in until after I’ve showered, so the intracranial voice of wisdom boomed, “WHAT ARE YOU DOING?”
I paused and exhaled. Then I thought about the time and energy we have spent teaching our children to love people and not things. I thought about the nights I have consoled a tired Manie when he feels wretched that his work schedule keeps him from spending as much time with the tiny people as he’d like. I thought about all the times I’ve remonstrated with Bugaboo for pouting because she had to spend time with family instead of going on a shopping trip. I realized that Manie had not sent her back to her room. And I realized that I was angry with a six-year-old girl because she wanted to spend an extra hour with her Daddy, and with a father for wanting to spend time with his daughter.
And I saw the look of trepidation on Bugaboo’s face, wondering if Mommy was going to hold this against her and be angry all day.
I hugged her, and kissed her, and said, “Love you, big girl.”
Today’s prayer: Lord, thank You for understanding that I am thick-headed, and loving me anyway. Many times in the past year, You have given me the opportunity to learn that we are not given to know the length of our lives, and we therefore should spend every possible moment loving one another as You have loved us. Many times, I have explained to Your blessings that we must value the needs of others above our own selfish desires. Lord, I am sorry for being angry with Your blessings for heeding the lesson. Please change my heart; please fill me with Your grace so that Your blessings may learn from me sometimes, instead of the other way around. Thank You for blessing me with so many and such wonderful teachers, and help us all, together, seek to serve You instead of ourselves in all things.